IMAN
18,Singapore
<3s: God, Music,Family, Art, Veve, Writing, Breathing
Influences: Oska Billy Pipen Wright, My Mother, Spydy, Comebackkid, Chelsea Fc, My Sisters.
Sunday, May 07, 2006
i had a deep conversation with a long lost mentor late last night. I grew up beside this guy and i ve learnt alot from him. We lost contact when we suddenly when lost after a huge huge heart breakin incident. Last night was the first time i d seen him in about a year. Honestly that one yea has changed this guy from a hot headed mutha fucker to a matured son of a gun(yes son of a gun).
He gave me another angle to look at things after last night. He told me what i had to do and what i should not. He also taught me this word called "DRIVE" and how his life has been revolving around it eversince the incident.
"Man, you can accomplish anything in this world, anything. If u have the will to want it so badly. U got to wanna it badly" he said.
This coming from a guy that has seen failures in front of his eyes. He has had death knocking his door for countless time and he has seen agony in the eyes of the dead.
His words are stuck in my head. Its like he struck a switch in me that has been off ever since i can remember. Just thinkin of it fires me.
Desire. Desire is the issue here in this entry.Do i wan it? do i wan it badly? do i wanna it so badly that i would do more work, sweat more sweat, cry more tears and bleed more blood to jus get my hand on it?
Frankly, i am still soul searching for the answer. Part of me wants it, part of me feel that i cannot push myself no more.
Questions, questions and more questions.
signing off 9:59 AM
